a moment need to remove.....

i beg u...plz ignore me.....

2 February 2011....

after I delete ur phone number from my phone last november.....

why u so suddenly msg me???????

can u stop it??? I can bear it anymore....u know it's hard for me to frget all about u....what u hv done 4 me....

eventhought people said...i'm crazy still loving u....but u know...u're da 1st one my my heart beating....how come can i frgt about u...????

tell me...how can we frgt about our 1st luv??? when u msg me all memories about u keep coming out..........

i'm sorry i nid to do dat....if not...my heart will not accept another person.........

people say...if we love a person...we need to leave that person if dat make he happy....

so...i've done it....so plz....dun find me...cz we can't meet again....we really can't meet again....if we accidently meet plz ignore me like stranger....I don’t want to look back,.....I don’t want to ever look back...I've told myself over and over again......................

 

life too tough.....i'm weary....

when i forget bout u....a person had a quite same face appear in front of me.....how come i can forget bout u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

i'm weary....why my life be like dis!!!

scare.....

because of u.....i'm scare.....

i scare fallin luv with sumone.....

i'm weak....i scare he will leave me jz like u.....

i'm really hope if i'm fallin luv with sumone...he will love me truly....

 

Amin......InsyaAllah...

still hv a piece of love??

today....i'm hanging out...then i meet a guy that had a long time tht i hv not see.....n he make me surprise....n my reaction is jz can stare at him...who is he?..handsome....but i've seen dis guy b4....but where? when? n who is he??? n suddnly my fren said he is her senior.....n i jz keep stare wif saying nothing...hahahaha...funny quiet dump...he's surprise me.......suddenly there is one thing playing in my head....hurm...if he entering my heart b4 u....i dunno wat will happen....

u know...i think i've ignoring u...but not...

yea...i know one of our fren said...she doesnt care about u....but u really care bout her....but for me she's cruel...selfish cz only wan sumone care bout her....but she??? she's doin nothing....jz wan having fun n proud cz got u.......u knw...i hate it...it's useless this happen while u're declare...u know???

b4 raya...i got a feel that sumthin happen that made u sad....n now....today...my instinct proven...n it's true u're not happy rite???

u know....i really wan u understand me...n i wan u to know....why?? why i leave u b4...

1..cz u like her n make me hurt...in order to ensure i'm not getting hurt more n more....so i leave u n said u stop thinking bout me but her...u know how pain i'm saying those word??? but....it's ok as long as ur mind hv no worries n calm...

2...when i said i can't frgt it...n hard to forgive u.....the nxt day....ur face is full wif sad...unhappy face....n stress....cz i dun wan u be like that n i hate ur un happy face...i push my self to saying...i forget it....n then i can see ur smile....fuuhhhh.......i've no worries anymore....

3....when i see ur shout out full of stress n u feeling sad...i push myself again by asking u...r u ok???..but the truth is..in my mind...i know u being like that is bcz of her rite???..to make u happy i jz need pretend i dunno bout it but talk about other think....n u mind feel calm rite?? so i've no worries again...

4...aftr u closer to her n till now...u've declare rite?? wat i can see are....u're not u're that i know....ur life is only her....n u happy be wif her.....but i know...u're unhappy cz she nvr care bout u....nvr taking care bout u.....i damnly hate her treat u like that....

i wan u to know...i leave u bcz i hate to see u being sad....i hate it...but what i can see rite now is...u're not happy...ur happy face...ur smile gone.....even physically or u tell da world that u're happy...but i know....u're not truly happy rite....

hey...stop it....u better find another girl......i dunno...i can't accept u be wf her....but for me...if sumone else i can accpt it...plz clash!!!!!!!!!!!

n wat happen today during i meet my fren senior...i think i can accpt that senior if he wanna b wf me....but....today also make me realize....for u...there still hv a piece of love......

take care dear...i hate u being sad.....

u make me...miss u....

today is my bufday.....yeah...6 sept....

tnx..cz wishing me....but...u know my aim is to completely forget about u...when my bufday dis year...but....u wishing me n make me miss u.....

u cruel to me...but i can't hate u....aaarrrgghhh....help me...i can't stop think bout u.....
y u care bout me......

i'm crying....tears are flowing....(remind me to FT Island song...)

why..i'm still like this...???

why? i can't forget u? i mean completely forget all da thing about u.....

sumone said....

TRUE LOVE IS BETTER THAN FIRST LOVE...

n i agree with it...BUT....IT'S HARD TO FORGET BOUT OUR 1ST LOVE...................

so today suddenly...the memories come back to my mind....

i still remember that u ...chat wif me using ur mobile phone.....eventhough u have swith off ur lappy...but u still keep on on9....cz u wanna chat wif me...i really miss dat day....
T.T

n i still remember..when u got jelouse when i talk to the ohers boy....when i taking pict wif other boys.....
i still remember u wanna talk to me when i'm still at China...u know everyday in China...I never forget bout u....
u want me take China scenery....so i take every view at china...but u know..i'm sorry i didn;t gv u those pict u hv done make me hurt..............i still remember that u're trying to cheering me...
u know..i still remember every moment that we create...every msg that u give me...i still remember....even i dun want remember it.....my mind will recall the moment so suddenly.......

but why????
u said u did not ever love me...but i make my self fallin love wif u n make myself think that u love me....u're such a cruel person.................................!!!!!!!!!

can I find him???

“No man is worth your tears, but once you find one that is, he won't make you cry”

dis quotes make me be strong......n will ensure there's no any tears dat running from my eyes for u.....dun hv anymore.....even in my heart...............

i hope can find that one....but my mind n heart...still hv u in it.....

hope i can forget u as soon as possible...

6 september....i hope i can totally forget everything bout u...

i hope...i can.....

Quit playin’ games with my heart...

Why are you doing this to me, why?
Why do you have to do this to me, make me cry?
Was it enough to throw everything we had?
All of the times we were together
And the times we can never be together again
Aren't they wasteful, to you?
Does it not matter to you?
Even now, are you okay without me?

I'm gonna be okay
Gonna be okay
I'll be okay
Gonna be okay
Baby without you
Without you
Baby without you
Without you

Without you, I'll be cooler
More cooler
I'm going to stand up
Without you
I'll live on
Without you

*credit to Without You by 2PM.....

i hope i can be cooler without u.....but can u live without me????
i ask u..can u??? if u can live without me...why u make me like dis.....

yesterday....so suddenly u ask me about internship either i've send da resume or not........it's weird u know??? we nvr talk from the very start of dis semester.....but y u so suddenly asking me sumthing dat not important 4 u to know bout it....u're such a cruel person!!!!...cruel!!!! why u make me like dis????

then today...i know the reason...b'cz both of u fighting rite??? she is not in ur facebook fren list rite??? y u suddenly inactive ur facebook account?? why????....so..that nite u find me rite??? asking da weird quest. rite??? rite????

why u make me like dis???? i'm a person....a human....i hv feeling....u think i'm heartless?????
stop dis plz.....u make me being crazy person....

then 2day....as usual....u keep ignoring me n same goes to me..there is no weird quest from u....why?? jz a simple answer...both of u stop fighting rite???? u find me went u dun hv sumone to talk rite?? tnx god i keep ignoring u....n jz answer ur quest....................

SOON CHI WEI...u're such a cruel guy!!!!

i'm stupid still love u.....still love sumone dat not love me....it's a sin....my wrong....n it's b'cz of u...u start it 1st.......

i still miss u....

i' feel i miss u yesterday.....n today u chatting wif me....tnx...
sorry...i need to acting ignoring u...b'cz i scare that it's hard for me to forget bout u.....sorry if it's rude....but i need to do it.........................keep ignoring u event u're infront of me...n jz reply ur quest...it's better.....

yin wei ni...neotemoni....because of u...make me acting like this....b'cz u make me acting jz like dis.....u hurt me!!!!
n dun find me if u feel bore..dun find me if u need sumone to talk to.....n please stop find me....cz i can't bear it anymore..............b'cz u luv her not me.....so go to her...

hope dis year will end faster cz i dun want see both of u in front of me...

a song of lie...

this song lyric are too meaningful...make me miss u....dear...

LIE by FT Island (translation)

Lie, the words that mean love
Even while knowing, the words that trick me again
The words saying I’ll forget, the words saying I’ll send you away
The wicked words I can’t say

No, I hoped it wouldn’t be so
I hoped you wouldn’t be so
That you wouldn’t be such a common love
I prayed and prayed again

No, I hoped it wouldn’t be so
I hoped you’d be different
That you wouldn’t be such an easy love
I prayed and prayed again

I thought it would blaze forever
Our once-hot love, the rings we put on our fingers in matching
Swearing our love for each other, our spoken love’s promises
Are now being left all awry

Really, our remaining love, the person you are
Once everything in my life, the person you are
Never knowing my heart, never knowing my thoughts, the person who’s left me
Now a different person’s person

Lie, the words that mean love
Even while knowing, the words that trick me again
The words saying I’ll forget, the words saying I’ll send you away
The wicked words I can’t say

Lie, the words saying you’ll return
The words that I’m believing all alone
The words “I love you,” even if they’re a lie
The words I can’t hear anymore

Yes if you would throw me away like this
If you’re going to throw me away like this
From the beginning, those sad words proclaiming your love
I wouldn’t have listened to them

Oh! Yes, if you say you’re happy I’m okay
Your hand I was holding, I’ll now let it go
The lock that’s bound you here, I’ll release it for you
If it’s what you want, coolly, I’ll try to leave you

From the beginning you weren’t right for me
But my greed in loving you was just too much
As a punishment for the me that my greed created
I neither hurt nor hope

Lie, that this is goodbye
The words making me wait for you once again
That I’ll forget you, that I’ll send you away,
The ugly words I can’t say

Lie, the words saying you’ll return
The words that I’m believing all alone
The words “I love you,” even if they’re a lie
The words I can’t hear anymore