a moment need to remove.....

I can't help myself to stop loving U.....

dis holiday...i start miss u...but i need be stronger...

i know u will go holiday.....n suddenly i saw our class leader post a pict of turtle keychain at his fb...n state 'lovely turtle..' and it is ur's..u know how was my feel dat time...it means..ME...

cz for me...in ur life only 1 person u call as turtle...n it's me.....if u consider turtle is others...i will feel bad...
i dun care what the others said...but for me my nickname that give by u is 'turtle'...n for me it's really meaningful for me...cz in smiling pasta OST the heroin call as 'my little turtle' and the hero create a song for his little turtle....although that song not for me....but...it really meaningful for me....

u know...every second when holiday come...i started thinking bout u....

n 2day u suddenly chatting me....make me suddenly miss u so much.....n i think i can't help myself to stop loving u...

did u know......

TRYING TO FORGET SOMEONE THAT WE LOVE IS JUST LIKE TRYING TO REMEMBER SOMEONE WHO WE NEVER MET......

u know what its mean? it mean...IMPOSSIBLE !!!.....

below is a song title 'LITTLE TURTLE' (Xiao Wu Gui) by Nicholas Teo.....short but meaningful....

This song is for someone
Music replace my words
My affection for her only increases
The moment I kiss her face
Oh~the world starts to twirl
The feeling of love is sweeter than cherries
Our eyes light up sparks and breaks through all limitation
It lets us forget which season we're in love becomes a classic
I give her all my love
I only want you to forever by my little turtle
I Love You Everyday

song for u......

those are word dat i'm really wan to shout....n tell u...so to let u know...what actually my heart feel.....

<< only one - yellowcard >>

I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only my only one.............

<< love sick - FT Island >>

When I miss you, I close my eyes and I can see that person better
I try to forget and erase, but I get reminded of that person more
I told myself a lie thinking that that person would come back
That person never said that she will be coming back, but all I can do is wait

The sin of loving that person a lot, the sin of loving you a lot
Because of you, and because of sin, I'm sick of waiting
The sin of loving you more, the sin of missing you a lot
Because of you, and because of sin, I'm crying with pain... like this

I told myself a lie thinking that that person would come back
That person never said that she will be coming back, but all I can do is wait

Breaking up is fast, but forgetting is hard
The love is painful, and I am hurt alone

Did you have to leave that far away from me?
Did you have to leave that far away from me?
I shouldve loved you with all my life, but you forgot me now like a heartless person
I should have loved you with my all, but now you live forgetting me

With all my life, the person that I love
That person only gave me tears and left
The tough love which I was hurt alone

The sin of loving you more, the sin of missing you a lot
Because of you, and because of sin, I'm crying with pain... like this

<< How to break a heart -Westlife >>

Since you’re not worth my love
I haven’t given up
I’m stronger than that
(I’m stronger than that)
And though my heart will break
I’m takin’ back my faith
Cos right now my world is spinnin’ too fast
But you won’t be the end of me
If you were the one you wouldn’t hurt me so bad
You gave me the world

Gave me the world to take it all away
All you left me was yesterday
And this space in my heart
Now it's slowly tearin’ me apart
I'm takin’ all that I learned from you
I'll make it something I’ll never do
I can't be who you are
You taught me how to break a heart x 2  

I’ll make it through this pain
My dreams won’t call your name
I’m stronger than that
(I’m stronger than that)
Cos I still know how to love
Know that will be enough
And this moment will fade into the past
You won’t be the end of me
If you were the one you wouldn’t hurt me so bad
You gave me the world

I'm takin’ all that I learned from you
I'll make it something I’ll never do
I can't be who you are
You taught me how to break a heart x 2  
I’m taking back my faith
I’m taking back my life
I don’t care for who you are
Cos you taught me how to break a heart
How to break a heart
How to break a heart
Cos you taught me how to break a heart

 

I can't send u away...........

yea...it had been about 4 month...a lot of things happen...btw u n me...

hv a lot of things dat u make me..become crazy....n can't stop thinking bout u...n u keep hurt me.....
y? u luv her....n u n her..................aaarrrrggghhh...dun have any energy to describe it....

what i wan..jz....i wan u to know...i love u...i'm jelouse...i keep hating her...i hate to hear her name...n anything about her.....cz i damnly hate her...........cz i luv u n u luv her...dat make me.............hurt...........i've a lot of things to tell u....but i can't...cz i dun wan u hurt n stress.................

u know....the day dat i said....dun think of me...jz think of her....actually those word are lie....i wan said.........i luv u...i'm fallin for u...cn u luv me...n stop luv her...leave her please............

the day dat i said i'm ok...nothing happen...i'm ok.....that also lie...i wan said......i'm not ok....from the day i know u like her...n till now...i'm not ok....cz i luv u....

can u stop....put the word dat hurt me at your shout out....make me deeply hurt....

stop it...!!....

hurt.....

u hurt me deeply....

i hate u....n u make me worry a lot cz of ur shout out....

ok...keep hurt me....n i;ll do my regular job.....which is good actress...jz need to pretend...n pretend......

try to forget u...

dis 1 week holiday....i'll try to forget bout u......
but why on 14th feb...u msg me...."r u at home"....aarrrghhh...luckily....my phone battery is running out....n on 15th...i find out my phone n charge da battery....then on dat morning i oso got ur msg ''gud morning n hv a nice day''

damn!!!!! how dare u.....u know....my day will be nice if u didn't send msg to me....hey stay away from my life.....

i hate her...cz u luv her....u know i damnly hate her...cz her bad behavior.....did u know her true face???? i hate her....i hate her...!!!! but i need to pretend.....uuuurrrrghhh....its really hurt me.....!!!!

u hurt me more than u hurt her....i wanna frget evrythng bout u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

actually....i really hate her....jz know to pretend she is good girl...in front other....but hv a bad mouth...hate her....pretend to be innocent....huh!!...stupid....!!!....no wonder lot boys like her....huh!!....keep pretend to be innocent....stupid!!!! hate u!!!!!!!!!!!

keep playing in my mind.....

dear...
1stly, epy chinese new year...

miss u....al ways think of u 4 da whole day....how come i can't forget u????
i'm sad cz my friend said dat i like u bcoz u're good looking, clever, n rich....am i da materialistic n demanding one???
how dare her said she is my best fren....she never know my feeling....!!!!!

n now...i dun want saying new year to u cz i want frget bout u.....n i know u're not wating 4 my wishes rite???

n i see at facebook she had wishing u.....n i feel...uneasy....

u know....u had said b4 dat u wan get married rite..mybe u meant it or joking i dun care.......n i had lying to u dat nvr think wan to married....cz still young.....but actually...yes i've think bout it...marry a man..n its u.....for me...once i'm fallin luv...i want married dat man......loyal is my principle....

erm..nvm...u n i look like doesn't hv any hope....

T.T
still luv u....

why???

i think i'm not luv u anymore...but
why?? why??
i'm really worry about u?? after see u like that.....i can't see u when u like that....my heart....keep worry n worry....

r u ok??? that is the quest that i'm really2 wanna ask u............
boy....i'm really care bout u....worry bout u...

r u sick??? but...i can't..ask u.....

hope u ok......
my luv.....take care ok.... T.T

such a stupid person....

yeah...i;m stupid cz fallin luv in u.....i hate myself.....

i hate u...why?? when i'm thinking bout u...u will appear.....
today...i go to an event...then in my head...there is nobody...jz thinking bout u....then suddenly u come at that event.....huh??...i think that jz my imagination.....but yeah...it's u....

then i getting bored wif dat event...n think u back home already...so....i back....but....actually u still at there...n getting my happiness disappear jz like dat cz she at there oso.....n my happiness gone n fly away jz like dat.....n how come i'm stupid jz like dat.....

hey stay away from me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm sad....bu kai xin....

i'm really sad....
- no one care bout my feelin...
- still luv u....
- u make gv me a lot of question marks...scary puzzle....
- can't stop thinking bout u....

when can i stop luv n think bout u....

i really wanna know...
- wat r u thinking bout....
- can i know???

u make me....in mysterious puzzle....

hard for me forget bout u.....but why my fren think i had forget bout u???
i'm sad...i think she at her rumate side....n i'm alone....

i'm really multiple sad................i'm sad....i really wanna u know.....dun think smile on my face show dat i;m epy............in my heart full of hole...i'm jelous that u care bout her..............aaaaaarrrrrrgggghhhhh......hate dis feeling!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

how can i forget bout u!!!!..... u too cruel to me.............

u still in my heart.....

i really angry that u lying...but sumtime...i dun hv any strength to scold u....n i know i still luv u....yeah....my rumate is correct....u're my 1st luv...it's hard to me to forget bout u...

u're my classmate...evryday i'll meet u....

yesterday.....make me realize i still luv u....even tough u hv hurt me...

but....ur last msg...

"u ok?" last nite....make me....epy....u care to me..........but....hurm...dunno wat to do...n i jz can reply ''y u suddenly ask me''....but u won't reply...make my head full with question marks.....

why???....yesterday i'm suddenly really miss u...n why as b4????....why u appear in my life....???? u make me crazy...keep thinking about u.....

u're cruel....u make me realize u still in my heart...but i need to let u go..............

***smiling face....who's now what actually inside.....(i'm really miss n cry 4 u.....)  but i sumtime i can see there is no hope 4 us.........what shud i do....?? jz waiting....or forget bout u????????